Monday, April 13, 2009

Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

I was raised in the church, but have realized lately that I have become one of the Christmas Eve/Easter Sunday church going crowds. The last few times I've gone, I've felt an unexplainable presence that I believe must be the Holy Spirit moving and working in my heart. There is just so much out there that makes me want to run away from religion, Christianity, and sometimes even God. My friend was recently straight out asked for sex from a church youth leader who is in a serious relationship. That is sick. One of the main preachers at my parents' church doesn't believe woman have any place of leadership in the church. That disturbs me. I hear so many sad stories that happen in the church. I myself have had a horrible experience within the church as a young teenager. That turned me away. So what do I do? Isaiah 41:10-->He will uphold me. He will help me. He will strengthen me. He is with me. Always. I need to find a church, I think, a family, a refuge, a safe place, a sanctuary. I need to revive my relationship with Jesus. I miss Him, you know?

1 comment:

C said...

Boy don't I know. I noticed you started following me, on my weight loss blog, which I haven't blogged on in like 2 months(because I am a weight loss slacker) so if you want to come and read me on my 'real' blog, the one where I tell about the cheez-it's and hot dogs I eat, please stop by. Maybe your hope of reviving your relationship with Jesus will rub off on me!-Christi